Dearest Amelia: TT here. No, not “Grandpa TT”. Just “TT” now. Remember how you came to call me “TT”? It’s because you couldn’t pronounce “Ethan”. I really loved hearing you call my name. Your and your brothers’ smiles and enthusiast mornings were something I really cherished and looked forward to each weekend. I miss you and I love you dear Amelia. It’s been a really long time since I’ve seen you and your brother and I just wanted to say hello and give you both a virtual hug.
You’re too young to realize it now Amelia, but you changed my life forever in many ways and I wanted to thank you for the wonderful times we spent together.
I’ll always cherish how you were so enthusiastic about having waffles with me each weekend morning. I loved heating up those Eggos, pouring the syrup, and sharing the warm deliciousness together over smiles. I loved seeing you run down the hallway to see how fast you were. I loved seeing your excitement to get in the pool. And I even loved your meltdowns when you didn’t get what you wanted. It was beautiful and it made me want more.
Spending time with you made me realize that I wanted children of my own. It was an option in life that I thought was no longer available to me. But it is now. It’s a sad twist of fate that the only way I would be able to have children of my own with my partner was by leaving my old relationship – losing you in the process – and starting a new one. Don’t get me wrong. I’m thrilled at where I am right now in life. It was only a year ago that I was having a heartbreak over not being able to have my own children. Now its a real possibility in the near future. But while I’m excited about my future, I’m deeply saddened about having lost you in the process.
You affected me greatly, dear Amelia. You opened my heart and world to bigger possibilities. I hope we can connect again in the not too distant future. I’d love nothing more than to share some waffles and smiles with you again. Love, TT.